“JIM, PLEASE GO OUT WITH ME. YESH, LET’S HAVE ‘SOMETHING PERSONAL’ IN A MOTEL TONIGHT.”

Those fucking things always drove me crazy. Every time I went to the stage, they were screaming like crazy. I just smiled and then went away. But they didn’t stop; they even got my e-mail address and sent me e-mails EVERY SINGLE SECOND. Someone that got my address shared it with other fans and instantly filled my inbox.

They just wrote the same thing: “JIM I LOVE YOU”; “JIMMY, I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU.” “JIM LET’S MARRY.”; “JIM I’M YOUR BIGGEST FAN.”

Okay, I didn’t know your weight, smart ass.

And I just replied the same thing to them: THANKS. I LOVE YOU BUT I CAN’T FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU.

And I couldn’t wait to see their responds on the stage. That was making me laugh out loudly.

On the stage, I saw a girl was fainted just because she didn’t expect my reply to her. She yelled and pushed me to marry her. The other members of A7X were crazily laughed; Syn patted me and said, “Dude, if you really marry her, you’d marry more than once.”

Thankfully the fans still loved me.

Once, I went out together with Johnny. One of our fans saw us and yelled “OMG ARE YOU DATING?! GOSH, THE REV AND JOHNNY ARE DATING, EVERYONE!” Instantly everyone turned around us.

I just laughed. So did Johnny. He explained, “We are not. We’re just best friends.”

And I hated the fact that the woman didn’t believe us and still yelling. Last time I saw her was when she taken to the asylum.

That gossip had been spread around. Every time we met our fans, they always yelled “YOU GUYS ARE SERIOUSLY DATING??!!!”

And we couldn’t say anything because we knew that they wouldn’t believe it.

Matt said that it would make us more popular. But the weirdest thing was my band mates really did it. Finally Brian dated Zacky, and Matt was still looking around. While me, I had Johnny but I didn’t know that he loved me back or no. And I didn’t think that boy love was a good thing.

The fans were being crazier than before. They still sent me e-mails even though I had changed my e-mail and they caught me again. They pushed me to break up with Johnny. I didn’t reply it, because I didn’t have to. I let them.

Even though, there was an e-mail I really loved for her creativity:

Jim,

GO FIND THE REAL LIFE, HONEY.

Stop loving a boy; it’s not cool. Don’t be ridiculous.

STOP IT NOW.

PLEASE.

It’s about for your future! How will you get a child for your family? How will you share your talent, Jim?

You’re still young and talented,

You’re handsome.

MARRY ME.

Fuck. I loved the beginning but not the end. Bullshit.

So finally I ignored every comment from our fans and still went out with Johnny sometimes. We spent our time together more than with other members. Maybe because our popularity were fewer than them? Well, maybe yes.

One night, Johnny and I were in a café. It was little bit dark so we wouldn’t catch up by our fans. He picked the café and I was wondering why he did it.

We sat in the corner of the dance floor. There was a VIP chairs and it was only one, so nobody was around us. Johnny said that he was going to say something important to me.

His position was blocking the light from the disco ball, so he was looked like a silhouette. I was hard to stare him but finally he stared me back. “Soo… what are you going to say?” I asked as I gulped a beer.

He looked nervous. “Well actually, Jim, I didn’t want to bother you with those rumors.”

“Whaddya mean?”

“Aren’t you feeling annoyed with those rumors?”

“The dating one?”

He nodded. “Yes, Jim. That one I’m worried about. I thought that you would hate me because of this.”

I could see his worry eyes. “Hey, don’t be like that. Everything’s gonna be fine, alright?”

He slowly smiled.

I reached his chin. “Nothing gonna break our friendship.” Then I stroked his Mohawk hair.

“Jim…” His eyes were softly glaring. He blushed, showing red even in the dark.

“Yeah John,” I smiled gently, and closing my face.

I kissed his lips softly, and touched his tongue. He kissed me back, jumped to the table and hugged me. I pulled his hair as I kissed his neck. I could feel my passion to him. He was the only one who could make me passionate.

We kissed for about 3 minutes before he went back to his chair. He panted as he cleaned up his lips. I leaned on the chair back and blinked my eyes.

“So this is the end, huh?” He asked and playing some smile.

I chuckled. “I think so. The end of the rumor is, the love. I can’t imagine what fans would say if they found us.”

He laughed. “I don’t think that I’d show myself kissing you.” He moved closer to me, kissed my neck.

We hugged. I whispered, “I love you, Jonathan Seward.”

He whispered back, “I love you, too, James Sullivan.” He kissed my hair.

“But I can’t fall in love with you because I have girlfriend already.” He giggled as he stared my eyes. He played his tongue as I realized I was only his pet.

Then I felt that everything was turning black.

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